Rejection is Often Redirection

To those who have recently chosen to see me in a certain light—and to the ten or more who have unfriended me this month—I write not in bitterness, but in reflection. I am learning to let rejection become redirection: a call to grow, to listen, and to begin again. Every one of us, daily, should be learning to do the same.
(This post will not be perfect.)

I have decided that, whatever the cost, I must repent. Not because anyone has shamed or coerced me—this time, the conviction is my own. After nearly ten months of prayer and reflection since casting my vote for Donald Trump last November, I have searched both the fruit and the spirit of what I once supported. And in doing so, I have learned that repentance is not merely turning away from something wrong, but turning toward something greater—toward the Kingdom that is not of this world.

For example, consider recent moments in our public square—Mrs. Leavitt’s tweet mocking and cussing in a private text exchange while wearing the cross around her neck, or the AI-generated videos promoted by Trump (or whoever is running his social accounts) that degrade human beings made in God’s image. These are not isolated lapses; they reflect a deeper sickness of the soul. I cannot lend my allegiance to leadership that exalts cruelty or uses faith as a costume.

The Kingdom I belong to calls us to honor the image of God in every person (fallen or restored), even those with whom we disagree. Any movement that forgets this has already lost its moral authority. The Kingdom I belong to is ruled by a King who washes feet, not one who tramples others and degrades them.

We are not actually called to “Live Like Kings”; we are told that the meek will inherit the earth. In other words, those with a sword learn when to sheath it.

Where I stand, I strive to call out what is evil and affirm what is good—no matter where it comes from. I’ve begun to understand, at least in part, what some of my left-leaning friends are trying to express. There are causes worth hearing: protecting our bodies from harmful chemicals like food dyes and artificial flavors, demanding accountability in healthcare and vaccine trials, ensuring that government spending reflects stewardship rather than excess.

These are noble aims. Yet I cannot endorse the extremes of either side. When plans like Project 2025 are drafted well in advance so that one man “won’t have to worry about the legalities,” something vital to the democratic republic and conscience is lost.

The Kingdom of God cannot be built on shortcuts to power; it is founded on righteousness, integrity, and truth. Perhaps in draining swamps, we create marshes of our own mess.

“I don’t want President Donald J. Trump having to lose a moment of time having fights in the Oval Office about whether something is legal or doable or moral.” — Russ Vought

That is not a president—that is a man who can be managed. And I cannot, in good conscience, support any administration, right or left, that trades conviction for control. Just as I once spoke out against the failures of the Biden administration, I must now speak even more clearly about this one.

I live by two pillars: Order and Mercy. The tension between them defines justice.

I believe that those who have entered this nation illegally have broken the law of the land and must face accountability; yet I also believe that grace should temper judgment. Scripture speaks of a “year of release,” a reminder that law exists not only to punish but to restore.

The Kingdom of God teaches both boundaries and compassion. Yes, violent and predatory individuals must be removed—but there are also millions here who live in fear, who work quietly, and who long for a chance to make things right. Don’t you think we should attempt to give them that?

Our system is so tangled that even the willing find no clear path to redemption. Courthouses too often become traps for arrests instead of instruments of justice. We can uphold law without losing love.

(Please hear me: those who have entered against the law of the land have skipped the line for those who are waiting. However, this is a complex issue that often slides toward ethnic and racial superiority.)

For me, this is what it means to be both 100% Order and 100% Mercy—to hold truth and grace together in tension, as Christ Himself did.

I believe that anyone who honors the Constitution and the principles of justice it upholds should be welcome here. But to those who seek to replace its foundation with the laws of another kingdom—whether that be Sharia or any ideology that denies human dignity—this land cannot bend. Even the atheist is welcome here, because freedom demands it; yet nihilism itself cannot sustain a nation.

Scripture tells us in Ecclesiastes that “all is hevel”—a Hebrew word meaning vapor, vanity, or mist—not that life itself is worthless, but that it is fleeting. The writer’s point was never despair but perspective: that without God, even pleasure and power are hollow; but with Him, every breath gains purpose.

The Kingdom of God restores meaning to what the world calls meaningless, filling even our vapor with eternal light.

I Too Have People I Know

I too have people I know that I cannot disclose, who are here trying to make a better life. They have not followed all of the rules, and I don’t believe we need litmus tests and egregious “entry fees” just to prove you’re smart enough to be here.
If you’re truly escaping violence, I understand. Unfortunately, when taken to extremes, it becomes a hideout that coddles lawlessness rather than justice.

The Math Does Not Add Up

What we are doing will not even begin to scratch the surface of the millions who have crossed our borders over the past three decades. The math does not add up. Cutting budgets, posturing strength, and shifting propaganda about those cuts cannot heal a nation’s heart.

Often, we deal in extremes—and I get it, many are upset about high levels of corruption in our government. Even the slogans—“Peace through Strength”—ring hollow when strength is measured only in weapons and not in wisdom.

I’ve spoken with many across this country, including servicemen and women I’ve had the honor of teaching, and a common weariness echoes in their words.
And remember, they are to fulfill all objectives the United States Armed Forces deems an objective of the United States Government—good or bad.

We are tired—tired of the illusion of choice, of a uni-party system that promises change but protects itself.

In order to form a more perfect union, as our founders once dreamed, it would require something deeper than politics.
It would require repentance, reconciliation, and renewal of spirit.

That is the only kind of radical change that brings peace—the kind born not of coercion, but of the Kingdom.
May we not see Democrats & Republicans or any party, as sports teams.

Living at Peace

Christians must learn how to live at peace with Jews, Muslims, and even those who reject the faith altogether.
You cannot argue a Muslim, a Jew, or even a Mormon into the Kingdom overnight—hearts are won by love, not conquered by logic.

What we can do is honor the humanity in every person, even while standing firm in truth.
Christ sent us into the world, not to blend into it, but to bear witness to it.

We exist within this amazing experiment. I understand that it's hard to find an instruction manual on this thing.

However, this strange wave of "Christian Nationalism" that has overtaken much of Evangelical culture is not the Gospel I know.
The Euangelion—the good news—does not belong to the right or the left; it belongs to the Cross.

At that intersection, “power” bows to humility, pride gives way to repentance, and nations are measured not by their might but by their mercy.
The Kingdom of God cannot be wrapped in a flag.
It was built with blood—the blood of a Lamb, not the sword of a state.

If I read Scripture correctly (which I believe I strive to do), there are some things it is clear on, even while others make arguments about Scripture from silence.

Scripture and Self-Deception

I do not redefine Scripture to fit my preferences.
I will not twist its words to justify my politics, my desires, or my culture.

I do not eisegete that we must bless Israel to earn God’s favor while refusing to call out her truly harmful acts, nor do I redefine love or sexuality to suit modern appetites.
Sin is still sin. Grace is still grace. And every one of us remains in desperate need of a Savior.

My expression of Christianity will never fit neatly into any political camp, and that tension will remain until the King Himself returns.

There is a war stirring—not of nations, but of spiritual beings—and much of it is of our own making.
The same pride that crucified Christ now infects His Church.
We’ve ended up adopting doctrines of demons through misplaced compassion.

It’s also worth mentioning that the Pharisees killed Jesus through their self-righteousness; today, Christians are in danger of repeating the same story through our nation.
The true Kingdom will not be built by self-preservation but by self-sacrifice.

In the end, I could see the undoing marked by the hatred of Christians and the eradication therein—not simply because the world “naturally hated” Christ, but because what some Christians stand for... is not love; it is control.

The Spirit of Deception

Both the “Left” and the “Right” are enslaved to the same spirit of deception—different masks, same master.
We have always been tribalistic in nature, just as Washington once warned of gathering around factions or party instead of truth.

I cannot participate in this anymore.
I recuse myself from the chaos, not out of apathy, but out of allegiance to a higher Kingdom.
I rescind my vote as a symbolic act of repentance, knowing that earthly systems can only solve earthly problems.

My deepest hope is that our children might still grow up with innocence intact.
Yet all the more, we have allowed ideologies into our schools that defy both reason and reality—teaching that men can become women, that gender is fluid, that truth is self-invented.

Friends, please hear me: this is not possible—biologically, theologically, physiologically, or psychologically.
“Transgenderism” is not transformation; it is confusion dressed as compassion for mental instability.

True transformation can only come through Christ, who restores the broken image of God within us.
The Kingdom offers not self-creation, but new creation.
Adam has died—why are we dressing up his bones with these ways of thinking when the Second Adam showed us how to be reborn?

The Holy Spirit Is Missing

Something is fundamentally wrong—the Holy Spirit is missing.
Philosophical intellectualism has overtaken.

Spiritual Captivity

What is truly happening is not just cultural confusion but spiritual captivity.
People are believing lies—and when a lie is believed, it gains power from its victim, not life.

Lies do not create; they corrupt, steal, kill, and destroy.
They bring death to truth, distortion to reason, and bondage to the soul.

In the unseen realm, deception has a logic of its own.
Demons cannot create; they only twist.
They inhabit lies, and those lies inhabit people, binding hearts and minds in fear.

Even psychology hints at this reality when it speaks of cognitive dissonance and self-deception—echoes of an older war between light and darkness.

Lies draw their strength from agreement.
When we believe them, we give them permission to rule over us.
But when we expose them to the truth, their power collapses.

The Kingdom of God frees by revelation—by bringing light where darkness once hid.
Every deliverance begins with a lie renounced, every freedom with truth received.

A Watchman on the Wall

I am here to love justice, to do mercy, and to walk humbly with my God.
I am here to resist the corruption of this world—to honor the widow, the poor, and the orphan.

I do not know everything, but I know enough to stand where conscience demands:
in the middle, between heaven and earth at the Cross of Christ, as a watchman on the wall.

My task is not to take sides, but to sound the alarm when deception enters the City below.
The City below wrestles with confusion and power, while the Kingdom above moves in order and light.

I stand between realms, warning, praying, interceding—because there are more with us than against us.
The hosts of heaven still surround the faithful.

Making Peace

We are called not merely to keep peace but to make it—through grace, truth, and courage.
Every person, even the ones we fear or despise, bears the image of God and is worthy of kindness.

I know this, because I was once the criminal too.

Yes, at times that calls for war when others behave in ways that threaten the safety of a nation—but other times it calls for defense.
We have taken up the mantle that Britain ceded by becoming the new world empire through military.

This was something Washington warned us of getting involved in.
Have we done more harm than good?

It would appear we are a part of the mixture of iron and clay—an extension of Rome.
That might be an ontological answer that only rests in the hands of the true King.

War often is unfortunately necessary, and even the God of Israel taught His people when to fight earthly battles so that they would be well-equipped when they entered His Promised Land—expelling the demonic kingdom of Babylon and not mixing with culture.
(Not the same as Israel today.)

Forgiveness as Warfare

Lastly, if I were Erika Kirk—which I am not—I could not sleep knowing that another life could be taken on my husband’s behalf to satisfy justice.
As a woman, I might wrestle with the government killing him, because women were made to give and protect life.

Yet forgiveness, even though she has forgiven him, is the very fire that refines justice; it is what makes mercy possible.

But perhaps this is a topic that not everyone can agree on, and that's okay.

I have been wronged seventy times seven, and still, I forgive.

If someone killed my wife or children, I would want them to remain alive so that they have the sweet opportunity to know Christ.

Forgiveness is not weakness—it is warfare of another kind.
(Forgiveness resolves a debt held over one which they cannot repay.)

It breaks the cycle of death and turns judgment into redemption.

Government and Conscience

Even Romans 13 cannot erase the higher law of love.
When a Christian enters government, they do not cease to be an ambassador of a different Kingdom.

This is where some might have a difference of opinion, and I’m okay with that.
It’s just that we are citizens of another country—born of water and Spirit, not blood and soil.

In that Kingdom, justice and mercy are not opposites—they are fulfilled by God.
Mercy can often be justice.

For some reason, we’ve removed the death penalty in some parts of our country and across the world—hanging, beheading, burning at the stake, crucifixion, and even the firing squad.

Yet even then, some who claim to follow Christ threaten to tar and feather their opponents.
It would seem that perhaps we figured doing these things was cruel.

It’s hard to say—what we do know is that God has established government; without it, we would be ruled by chaos, not order.
The government’s main role is to punish evil and reward good.

But what about when governments become corrupt—when they call good evil and evil good?
This is where civil disobedience occurs:

“We must obey God rather than men.”

Mercy Over Judgment

In the prison system, while we might have repeat offenders, I have seen prison ministries where men once hardened by violence now weep like children—forgiven much and loving much.

I have seen it in myself, redeemed from the same darkness I now expose.

I was once a criminal—both in the law of the land and the law of God.
My hope is that we don’t call for the death of even the worst criminal, but that we remove them from our streets to protect others.

If we truly understood the Kingdom and how the demonic realm works to overthrow it, we would know that we do not wage war against flesh and blood—and that possession of ideology can be overcome.

Every adult was once a child, and every child has a backstory.
It does not excuse the sin, but it is possible to come to repentance.

All Things New

If, in the end, I am wrong, I will be the first to admit it.
Let it be known that repentance is the path home, and mercy the gate.

I long for the day when both Left and Right, sinner and saint, will kneel before the same throne—not in triumph or defeat, but in awe.

For the Lamb still reigns, and He is making all things new.

I could spend all day on many topics, but this is where I land on a few things.